Coupling?

Coupling? Kita? Ehem.. Ehem.. Cam tak caye kan? Dengan sape? Ade lah... HAHA, Tapi mmg cam tak percaye.. Ye ahh.. Couple ngn bdak tu.. Bdak pmalu.. Dahlh kitorg jrang sgt ckp. Jarang? Stau kite tak pernh.. Well, skali je kot.. HAHA, Mcm mane bleh couple ngn die? Kitorg suke same suke.. lol. Sejak bile suke kat die? Hmm.. Well, since tahun 6. Ktorg knl kat tmpt tusyen. Lame gak kn? Die je tak tau.. Shh.. Jgn bgtau die tau.. HAHA, Sebab ape suke die? Well, adelah sebab2 kite yg tsendiri.. Nanti kite bgtau, korg rse ape pulak.. So, kite senyap je lh.. Since when ktorg couple? Err.. Rhsie! hehe.. Kite bgtau ni sbb korg dok tnye jer.. kalo x, kite xpost.. So, kalo ade ape2 soalan lg, silalah tnye yer.. Kite akn sdia mjbnye.. Kcuali soalan2 tertntu.. Hehe.. Well, Kite harap kitorg akan kekal sampai bile2.. AMIN!!! HAHA, So, itu je lh kot. Ok. Adios! Assalamualaikum!

-hidayahS-

need to talk

ok, i hope u guys is in ultimate boredom and open this blog. it's about my addiction. k-pop. yeah, i know... Hajar, dun go somewhere else or cursing. yeah, u guys annoyed by it. but we can't control of our addiction. dun say u guys understand bcoz u guys dun know and i dun care, it makes me mad. ok... what i'm gonna say earlier? ouh... it's hard u know... i'm in the process in leaving all my addiction, termasuklah YT, FB, k-pop... dun believe it? i already talked to raja. ask her. ok, now, i know that u guys are upset bcoz we abandoned u guys and did lots of stupid stuff and talking weird stuffs. u guys mad and annoyed bcoz u guys dun like it. it's like to me someone is talking about JUSTIN BIEBER or someone else every time, every hour. "that guys dun know u all, and u guys are all crazy of them and say he is mine, he is mine!" dun think i forgot about that. i took that very seriously and i'm hurt. i wish u guys know how we felt. the urge of adrenalin, the happiness. it makes u thrilled.. ohh... i sounded like mad girl (a little truth in that) and i'm hurt bcoz it's true. and i always asking why? why? why am i suddenly jump up when hear about them? it was reflex.. why am i angry when u critic them? believe me.... i'm more control at school than i'm at the house. i saw news of them and i scream and squeling like crazy. AND when i hear u guys critic them, i'm so angry that i want to punch that person's face. yeah, crazy, right? but i tried to control it. so far, mission is succes. why am i talking about this? because HONESTY IS THE BEST. i want to show u guys how we feel.. every1 has their obsession. it's just ours seems can't be control. that's what i'm afraid of. that obsession. urmm.... little distracted here.. what is it that i actually want to say?ok.... i'm not gonna promise this, but i tried to talk to others to LESSEN our obsession. it's not healthy too if we always talk about kpop. -jay-

Alamanda trip

Ok guys! I need a logical idea for this event. Okay here's the problem. My mom let me go to Alamanda BUT, there's a transportation problem. See, my dad is working on that day( SHIT!), and he HAVE to use the car ( DAMN IT). My auntie got classes on weekends, so, she can't help me ( OH GOD!). I'm still thinking of posting the trip, but I don't know when. So, I really need your help ( SOS)..please, please, please, please, please, please, please! I want my 15th birthday, the day to remember for the rest of my frigin life!!!

sick of them

i already wrote in my status, wrote in my blog. but i dun care. it's a democratic country. i can typed as long as i'm not doing any criminal. mak aq bual2 ngan abang aq tadi, talking about ego. come on.... every 1 is ego. i never met some1 ego never ever doesn't has a slightest ego in their selves. how can i know? i live with ego people 4 almost 15 years. dun say "oh, i totally understand ur feelings! it's so annoying, right? " bla.. bla.. bla... go to hell, u guys dun know anything about my life unless u are me. think that being the youngest is the best? got lots of money? yeah, it sure do feel good but it can be gone.. like... 1 minute? whatever.. ok, u are the youngest, dun know things in the world works. u are a kid. u dun know how we feel. ok i dun know how u feel, how can i know? u don even show me. worried that if u reveal ur weakness, it'll make ur life end. u must have pride in urself as an adult. dun show ur tears. show ur bravery. chhtt... i'm sick of that. then, when i make some problems, the adults gonna say"u dun know what i'm feeling! u dun know the hard of it!" blame us? u guys the one who think we are soo stupid. think that we are so helpless. think we can't help u guys. only think that we only do fun. yeah. we are small. sometimes, i just feel like i'm mad thinking all this stuff. sometimes, i can't stand it. but amazingly, i still can. i still living on this world. it's how this world works. the strongest will be on top, the weakest will be on the bottom. it's a cruel world, but, what can u do about it? 4 me, the anger will past and i knew it'll always come back... but it's not only hatred, anger, sadness exist in this world, there's happiness, love and so much more. it is the world that make the world is. ~jay~

i'm in luv?

ok, i'm not in luv... just wanna make it sound more catchy.. hahahaha. well.. whem i'm studying... or more to... i dun know... imagining... sort of.. i felt boring and kinda sick looking at books.. i started doodling-as usual- and wrote some ridiculous things... then, this come out from my dead brain

i keep feeling sad 4 nothing
i keep feeling happy for nothing
i keep feeling pain for nothing
i wonder what makes me feel like that?
when i feel like i'm on the top of the world, suddenly the sadness push me
and i falled from the top to the bottom that has no end
i have nothing to hold
nothing to grab
why this feeling has no end?
i can't breath! it suffocate me!
is it you? u charmed my heart
i'm afraid to come near to you
afraid that i'll be greed and want more from you
that i'll trap ur life
afraid when u are gone, my life would be nothing
afraid i can't thinking anything else but you
afraid you'll hate me, you afraid of me
i set my mind to forget you
because there are lots of others that can make u happy
but i can't stay away from you
i'm afraid to forget that face, that smile, that voice
that feeling that made me happy, made my heart beat so fast until i felt like it gonna explode
afraid of losing you
so i keep battling with these feeling
i can't tell you
afraid you'll blame urself for making me like this
afraid of my self
so when i felt greed, i'll stay away from you
and just watch you live a happy life
bcoz that's my happiness come from

sounded like cinta bertepuk sebelah tangan... kehkehkeh... sape la mamat aq sker tuh ek? x de lah.. what do u guys thinks? i can be a good lyricist? kind a like it even though my english kinda suckz ~jay~