need to talk

ok, i hope u guys is in ultimate boredom and open this blog. it's about my addiction. k-pop. yeah, i know... Hajar, dun go somewhere else or cursing. yeah, u guys annoyed by it. but we can't control of our addiction. dun say u guys understand bcoz u guys dun know and i dun care, it makes me mad. ok... what i'm gonna say earlier? ouh... it's hard u know... i'm in the process in leaving all my addiction, termasuklah YT, FB, k-pop... dun believe it? i already talked to raja. ask her. ok, now, i know that u guys are upset bcoz we abandoned u guys and did lots of stupid stuff and talking weird stuffs. u guys mad and annoyed bcoz u guys dun like it. it's like to me someone is talking about JUSTIN BIEBER or someone else every time, every hour. "that guys dun know u all, and u guys are all crazy of them and say he is mine, he is mine!" dun think i forgot about that. i took that very seriously and i'm hurt. i wish u guys know how we felt. the urge of adrenalin, the happiness. it makes u thrilled.. ohh... i sounded like mad girl (a little truth in that) and i'm hurt bcoz it's true. and i always asking why? why? why am i suddenly jump up when hear about them? it was reflex.. why am i angry when u critic them? believe me.... i'm more control at school than i'm at the house. i saw news of them and i scream and squeling like crazy. AND when i hear u guys critic them, i'm so angry that i want to punch that person's face. yeah, crazy, right? but i tried to control it. so far, mission is succes. why am i talking about this? because HONESTY IS THE BEST. i want to show u guys how we feel.. every1 has their obsession. it's just ours seems can't be control. that's what i'm afraid of. that obsession. urmm.... little distracted here.. what is it that i actually want to say?ok.... i'm not gonna promise this, but i tried to talk to others to LESSEN our obsession. it's not healthy too if we always talk about kpop. -jay-