i'm in luv?

ok, i'm not in luv... just wanna make it sound more catchy.. hahahaha. well.. whem i'm studying... or more to... i dun know... imagining... sort of.. i felt boring and kinda sick looking at books.. i started doodling-as usual- and wrote some ridiculous things... then, this come out from my dead brain

i keep feeling sad 4 nothing
i keep feeling happy for nothing
i keep feeling pain for nothing
i wonder what makes me feel like that?
when i feel like i'm on the top of the world, suddenly the sadness push me
and i falled from the top to the bottom that has no end
i have nothing to hold
nothing to grab
why this feeling has no end?
i can't breath! it suffocate me!
is it you? u charmed my heart
i'm afraid to come near to you
afraid that i'll be greed and want more from you
that i'll trap ur life
afraid when u are gone, my life would be nothing
afraid i can't thinking anything else but you
afraid you'll hate me, you afraid of me
i set my mind to forget you
because there are lots of others that can make u happy
but i can't stay away from you
i'm afraid to forget that face, that smile, that voice
that feeling that made me happy, made my heart beat so fast until i felt like it gonna explode
afraid of losing you
so i keep battling with these feeling
i can't tell you
afraid you'll blame urself for making me like this
afraid of my self
so when i felt greed, i'll stay away from you
and just watch you live a happy life
bcoz that's my happiness come from

sounded like cinta bertepuk sebelah tangan... kehkehkeh... sape la mamat aq sker tuh ek? x de lah.. what do u guys thinks? i can be a good lyricist? kind a like it even though my english kinda suckz ~jay~